I tremble and I quiver yet seem unable to pinpoint what ails me
I know it is deep
It is real
It makes me feel alone
It tells me that I am not
Yet still I feel
That is scarier than being alone
There is no source
It is in me
It is me
These are moments we must hold onto
This is what it feels to be inadequate
Peaks and valleys I remind myself
We all wish to ride high all the time
But to be on top we must first feel the breath of the darkness that creeps from below
For some life is found in a series of moments
Moments that dictate what follows thereafter
I have been to this place before
I have no fear that I will return
But it will not deter my soul
What is mine
What I hold onto despite it all
I seek a life partner
But this is mine
Courage must be found under fire
These are not the times to disappear
I must be present
I am present
I will be here through this entire life of mine
The beat of my heart will fuel this journey
I will be sure to take notes
To learn a lesson
To stand by my words
In both good times and bad
Be here for yourself when you need it the most
You’ve always been for others
I am no different
Do not try to be different
This is special, but it is common
It is every individual’s freedom and burden
I must feel both
Remind myself of both
Even though the world will be sure to do so
My angst will not be defeat me
My passion will define me
This is my life
And it is these very moments that are the realization that I am the person I’ve always wanted to become.